Viewing the slideshow of Ron and Rachel (http://pictureinfinity.com/slideshows/east/)  almost makes me want to get married.

Well, I got over that in a hurry.

I have no idea what the plan is here.  What God is going to do with this broken, messed up, shattered thing I call my life; only that He is, like Sandy says, going to put it together in a mosaic more beautiful than anything my human wholeness could have been.  Maybe I’ll get married, maybe I won’t.  Maybe I’ll have kids, maybe I’ll be given the great gift of loving other’s children.  Maybe I’ll stay in New York, maybe I’ll leave, maybe I’ll be a teacher, maybe I’ll find a job in which someone else gets to cook for me(yeah, well, one can always hope…)…

And the truth is, I just don’t really care.  Winter is almost over, and, if I look carefully enough, I can see the beginnings of leaves on the trees, the buds slowly growing.  And I who have died am alive again today, and bursting with joy.  How did it happen?
Gradually…and then suddenly, like spring coming anew.