And all I can think is–it wasn’t supposed to be like this.
I’m coming up on the second anniversary of college graduation, and I’m still working at Subway for minimum wage. I’ve been out of college two years, and I’m still living at home with my parents working for $6.75 an hour.
Part of this, of course, is incredible lack of planning on my part. I had intended to work a year and then go to graduate school. When no jobs presented themselves immediately, I hurried the timeline a bit and it was a disaster.
Like everything else at the moment. Graduate school at Binghamton was a disaster. Americorps was a total and complete failure, the Chernobyl of disasters. Elmira College was a failure and a waste of money, but it did solidify that I want, more than anything, to earn my master’s in family studies and special education. None of my classes from EC will transfer anywhere, and I’m paying back on the loans from Binghamton, but at least I know what I want to do now.
And I’m lonely. I’ve never been this alone. Rachel’s married and gone, and I’m left realizing that I really had no other close friends. Oh, I did, but in the end, we weren’t really that close. I was in their lives for enertainment, and it’s only now I realize how completely different our personalities and lives are. There’s a movie I really want to go see tonight, and I have money in the bank–and I have no one to call to go with me.
So I will pick myself up and dust myself off, and since there’s no one home tonight, I will head on down to town and see who I see, and bring a good book and eat at Pizza Hut.
And wonder how, exactly, this all happened.
Sara 
Sara I have always considered you one of my closest friends. The fact that we don’t get to talk that often doesn’t change that. Also the friends I make I never look to them for entertainment, all of them including you I am friends with because I can talk to them, relate to them, and occasionally go out and have a good time with them. If you had given me a call tonight I would have gone with you to see the movie. I even have two movie passes for the mall that my mom got through work. I’ve had them for the last 3 months but haven’t had the chance to use them yet. I didn’t have anything planned tonight anyway so it wouldn’t have been a problem. Yes all our personalities and lives are different, but I honestly think it is those differences that make things interesting. I mean if you, Julia, Sharon, George and I were all the same do you think things would be as interesting as they are when we get together? Just remember Sara you aren’t in my life or anyone else’s life just for entertainment.
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I’d go with you if it wasn’t for the whole “really far away” thing.And provided your choice of movies didn’t suck.
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